Friday, January 18, 2008

blah blah blah

I apologize for all the complaining about my show I've done this week. I knew if I opened the floodgates it would all start coming out. I try to not do too much ranting here, and I have definitely gone over that line- for my own self, at least. I think I may delete posts or portions of posts, because I just hate having all that crap here online. Last night the director complimented me on my positive nature (apparently I am passing the patience test, at least outwardly) and the musical director (the same lady I loved who did our opera) gushed about me, which was nice, and of course makes me feel all Scroogish about the other things I've said. Not that every word wasn't true, but, as always, not the whole truth. So enough of that. For now, anyways.

I had planned to spend the entire day scrapbooking today. I haven't done much lately, but last week managed to spend a few hours getting started on my England scrapbook, and was really getting excited about it. I was looking forward to having a day of working at my own pace on something creative. Ah... but the best laid plans...

The May Queen is home sick from school today. As soon as I arrived home from dropping her off I received the message to come and retrieve her. She is not terribly sick, a fever just high enough to be sent home from school and the vague complaints of shifting symptoms. I am torn between my own disgruntled feelings of not getting "my day," my desire to make my child feel well, and my attempts to not make a sick day at home too fun so that she gets any ideas about faking it in the future. If she just wanted to curl up and sleep together on the couch I would be all for it, but playing with Polly Pockets on the cold living room floor is frankly a little too hard for my tired and cranky self today.

So we are on this delicate balance beam, she and I, at home together today. Neither of us feeling our best, and no real medicine to cure our ills.

32 comments:

Luisa Perkins said...

Oh, that's rough. I have had that happen many times. Hopefully you'll get 'your' day sometime soon!

Mary Alice said...

Maybe she'll enjoy some down time while you do your albums...a book on tape, a little movie, a sweet little restorative nap?

Rima said...

It's hard not to be disappointed when you'd planned a relaxing and restorative day for yourself - I would feel the same. Sick days are always "extra TV" days at our house.

painted maypole said...

i would be all for the may queen watching TV all day, frankly, but she feels too well to do that. She gets bored and keeps asking me to play. She wants me to go outside and swing. she complains she has no one to play with. ack.

Don Mills Diva said...

Hope she feels better soon poor dear!

thailandchani said...

I would think it's hard to not be disappointed, too. Of course I truly dislike sudden changes to my plans - so I understand completely.

Hopefully she will feel better tomorrow.. as will you. :)

nomotherearth said...

I know the feeling of missing your "day". It's rough. Especially when you're tired from trying to get a show up. Hope you get some time soon.

wheelsonthebus said...

Kiddo -- why have a blog if you cannot complain every now and then?

Sober Briquette said...

Argh. I did a mess of pages last JUNE and never journaled them. I am so behind. Too bad Fiona can't come over and play with MQ.

Chrissy said...

My oldest had a day like that last Sunday; we missed church, which is aggravating for me, and then the whole day she acted like she felt just fine. Fevers can be deceptive sometimes.

carrie said...

My whole week has been full of lost "me" time due to kids' illnesses! At least I can say that I've had more naps this week than ever! :)

Hope the May Queen feels better soon!

And, you know, if you don't get to those scrapbooks, you can always come to "scrap camp" with me in a few weeks . . . three whole days of nothing but scrapbooking, wine, friends and nobody needing a thing from you (except maybe some tape runner)!

slouching mom said...

I hope you get a little time to yourself this weekend to scrapbook...and that MQ is well enough to return to school on Monday.

Mac and Cheese said...

I hope she feels better, but not well enough for Polly Pockets.

flutter said...

ugh, I am sorry. Here is to hoping for health and peace in your house

Bayou Belle said...

The true test of motherhood indeed. Hang in there:-)

Alpha DogMa said...

I too face down the temptation to fill blog posts with grumpy complaints. Which would be as much fun to post as they would be to read.

So...did you ever post that bracelet? I don't want to be rude -- I've just no faith in Canada's postal service (about whom I could write a really whiney they-ruined-my-Christmas post) and thought it might be MIA.

Sorry to hear about your play -- especially since you had such high hopes.

Amy Y said...

Hang in there, Mama.

I don't know about deleting old whiny stuff... I think having an outlet for it is what helps your outward appearance of patience. You've vented and now you can move on. It's a part of your history now... your past. If you delete it, you're deleting a tiny piece of you.

the dragonfly said...

Hope the show goes well. I'm a bit slack-jawed at the thought of Russian accents...but anyway...

Hug that little May Queen for me. Hope you get some alone time sometime soon! (I've essentially forgotten what that is...)

Aliki2006 said...

Fell better--BOTH of you...

Kathryn said...

The sickies are definitely going around. We are still on the mend here.
Hope everyone feels better soon, and you get your day. :)

Jen of A2eatwrite said...

That's one of the worst - and I'll echo Luisa that I hope you get your day soon!

Kyla said...

Oh gosh, I've been complaining all year now. I don't mind listening to it now and again. LOL. I hope the MQ feels better soon. Winter illnesses are the pits.

JCK said...

I love the image of the balance beam. You described my own feelings so well when one of my beloved children infringes on my alloted space, my time. Yet, don't they rule our lives, anyway? Not sure what I was thinking otherwise!

Sometimes the best, most honest dialogues (monologues) can come out of posts that rant. No apologies necessary. Break a leg!

Oh, The Joys said...

Go easy on yourself. Why can't your blog be about whatever you're going through when you're going through it?

My blog used to be mostly just silly. Lately it's been sad and mad. Who cares? It's my blog. It's me. You know?

Magpie said...

I hope today was a better day.

And go ahead and bitch here- why not?

creative-type dad said...

Being sick sucks...

Hope the recover happens soon

Alex Elliot said...

I hope tomorrow is a better day for both of you. I know what you mean about the sick days. In fact my older son claimed he was sick when his grandmother was visiting and I fell for it. For a while after that he would go to school and tell the teacher he was sick and needed to go home. I nipped that one in the bud.

Candygirlflies said...

Sorry, PM... It's rough when someone in the family is sick, while the mother is desperately in need (and deserves!) a little p&q time to herself. I sure hope MQ perks up, and that you have a couple of hours to relax. You've been working extra-hard lately!

And, I want you to know, I understand the need to delete posts. I write stuff, and then change my mind and delete it, all the time. You have to be able to feel "peace" about what you've put out there in the ether. That said, we understand if you need to vent!

I have been meaning to tell you something for ages... I often re-visit your wonderful post on "forgiveness" that you wrote a few months back. I can't tell you how much your words have helped me to cope with a situation in my life. Thank-you.

xo CGF

Wayfarer Scientista said...

awww....hope the May Queen feels better soon and you get some "you" time to make you feel better too!

Jennifer said...

I hope the weekend has been better -- better health for MQ and some you time for you!

shay said...

I hear what you're saying but even optimists need a safe place to vent. I won't hold it against you if you don't hold it against me. I often feel I'm less positive in my blog than I am irl.

I hope you're girlie is better by Monday!

Julie Pippert said...

Aww don't feel bad about needing to share a bit of frustration. It was the most diplomatic "complaining," really. :)

Those at-home "mostly sick" days can be tough. Hope you are both better.