Tuesday, June 23, 2009

nervous

A few months ago a store was having a sale - buy one get one free. Hair dye. They only had one box of my usual color, so I timidly picked up a box of Auburn Brown. I looked at. I thought about how when I wore this wig, everyone said I looked great as a red head. I thought it might be kind of fun this summer, when I wasn't in a show and didn't have to answer to a director, to dye my hair a different color. I shook my head. Put both boxes back. Thought I'd check back later in the week to see if they had two of MY color.

Then I picked it up again. Why not? I bought it.

Well, here I am. I'm not in a show. It will be at least 2 1/2 weeks before I can audition for anything. And that box of dye was the only one under the sink.

I pulled it out. I looked at it. I compared it to my regular color.

No.

I put it down.

I'll go buy my regular color tomorrow.

Then I picked it up again. Why not?

I tore open the box and quickly began before I could rethink it.

While working it through my hair I began to get terrified by the blood colored solution. I reminded myself of a time nearly 8 years ago when I dyed my hair auburn. Again, I was in a rare "between shows" time... this time a forced break so I could go visit my bestest friend in NYC. Wouldn't it be fun to be a redhead in NYC? I dyed it. No one noticed the change. Not even me.

Maybe this time will be like that?

After letting my hair soak the appointed time I hopped in the shower. MAROON colored water flowed from my head.

I freaked out a little.

I WASHED my hair.

I don't think it came out.

It's air drying now. I'm a little afraid. I'm a lot afraid.

I'm hoping it will be like last time, and no one will notice. I dyed my hair a different color thinking it would be fun and now I'm hoping no one will notice. Crazy.

It's just hair, right? In four weeks I can dye it back.

12 comments:

Cold Spaghetti said...

I'm excited that you lived life in the moment and WENT FOR IT. How more dramatic is that?? You are the example of putting the mirror up to nature!

flutter said...

4 weeks? how about tomorrow? ;p

I am sure you're gorgeous

kaye said...

I hope you'll post a picture, can't wait to see it :)

de said...

and?

I loved the brilliant red color I used last month- just not the blond. I'm already back to brown. But maybe it's brown with a secret this time.

Enjoy it!

Chantal said...

I remember when I started dying my own hair. It took me about almost year and 6 different colours before I settled on the one I like. Oh that was a fun year. New hair colour every 6 weeks. Although, people only commented on two of the colours. Even though I thought they were all crazy!

Louise said...

So I'm "dying" to know how it turned out!

(4 weeks is a very short time if necessary.)

Amy Y said...

Don't worry, when I dyed my hair red, the water came out purple. Scared the pants off me, too. I hope you'll post a picture!

alejna said...

I love auburn. I bet it will look great. Photo?

I should color mine again.

Aunt Becky said...

I colored my hair for years--always red and I'm a natural, well, I guess my natural color is black--and I loved it. If it looks really, really bright at first, don't worry. It'll tone down, I swear.

Jen of A2eatwrite said...

I just don't do the color thing because I'm EXCEEDINGLY nervous about it.

In Russia it was so weird, because we had one teacher who dyed her hair a completely different color every weekend. Given the hair dyes in the Soviet Union, I've always wondered whether or not she still has a head of hair.

Hmmm.

I hope yours turns out to be a lovely, summer shade!

Magpie said...

you could try blue :)

Woman in a Window said...

I think you'd look gorgeous red. Really.