Monday, January 17, 2011

my 2010

The past two years I've done this meme in January, and thought maybe it would be both a good way to reflect on the past year, and do some actual blogging again. So here goes...

1. What did you do in 2010 that you’d never done before?
I moved back to Michigan. I grew up here, but I've never lived here as an adult.

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn't make any resolutions last year, although I did mention in the answer to this question last year that I would like to exercise more and tone up. I would still like to do that. My resolve, however, is clearly not very strong.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes. A friend gave birth this summer, and I have enjoyed several visits with her beautiful baby girl (and her fun, Shark-loving big brother... and their mama, of course!).

4. Did anyone close to you die?
My grandfather died in October. He was the last of my grandparents to go, and I feel his loss immensely. The May Queen has been struggling with this, too. Just before Christmas she saw an ad for a local hospital, and said to her daddy that if Great Grandpa had gone there maybe he wouldn't have died. He used it to talk to her more about cancer, death, and Grandpa's choice not to treat his terminal illness.

5. Where did you travel?
Orlando; Nuevo Vallerto, Mexico; New York City; Mobile, AL and Ft. Myers, FL. And across the country for a move.

6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?
I have felt so unsettled this year. I started off the year with the seed of a possibility of moving, which grew and grew, and we readied our home for sale by painting and boxing up belongings. Then we moved and have been in temporary housing since July. I feel dislodged, without a nest to feather. My home is not my refuge. I would like to get into my new house (looks like we'll close mid February!) and make it my home. I also only did one show in 2010, and the lack of that creative outlet has been really difficult. I hope to have more theatre in my life in 2011. I also want more confidence. I feel shaken after this move... unsure and unsettled and without not only a home, but a PLACE... and my confidence has plummeted.

7. What dates from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Friday July 23rd the moving truck deposited all of my belongings into this house, and that night a storm deposited a bunch of water into the basement. It seems, unfortunately, to have been a pretty accurate harbinger of how I would feel in the months to follow.
However, a week later, on Saturday July 31st I stood in a chapel of St. Bartholomew's in NYC and made promises to love, care for and share the grace of God with a much awaited and loved baby boy, which is a reminder of answered prayers and abundant love.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I have no idea. Getting out of bed seemed like an achievement many days.

9. What was your biggest failure?
I feel like I am failing at making a new life in a new place. I don't think that this is a permanent failure, I think it is something that can turn around. There are small successes within the larger failure, of course, and I am trying to build on those.

10. What was the best thing you bought?
John Boutte's live at Jazz Fest 2010 CD. And a new winter coat.

11. What song will always remind you of 2010?
Hallelujah. Specifically ,John Boutte's version of Leonard Cohen's tune. It's been a year of trying to sing Hallelujah, no matter what.
I did my best, it wasn't much
I couldn't feel, so I tried to touch
I've told the truth, I didn't come to fool you
And even though it all went wrong
I'll stand before the Lord of Song
With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah

12. What do you wish you’d done more of?


13. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Staring at screens.

14. What was your favorite TV program?
Glee and Treme.

15. What was your favorite movie?
I can't think of one. (The King's Speech was excellent, and by far the best movie I've seen in ages, but I saw that in 2011)

16. What was the best book you read?
Oh, I do have a resolution this year, and it's to keep a list of the books I've read so that I'll remember these things! I finished The Help just before the end of the year, and it was a wonderful book.

17. What one thing would have made your year measurably more satisfying?
Honestly? Not moving. But honestly? Not moving would have presented it's own set of challenges, and who can truly say they wouldn't have been worse?

18. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?
haha. The idea of me having a fashion concept is laughable. This winter's concept, though, is: LAYERS . aka "Baby, it's cold outside."

19. What kept you sane?
Nothing. Clearly.

20. Who did you miss?
I moved, so the list is long, long, long. Topping the list are my next door neighbors, a friend who really supported me in my last days there, and the praise team at my old church.

21. Who was the best new person you met?
I have a new friend here who has been wonderful. She invited me to join with her and another friend for a weekly lunch date. We've gotten together with our families, we've gone to movies, plays, restaurants. She has gone out of her way to make me feel included. When we settle in our new home she will live a few blocks away. And I am so grateful for her.

22. Tell us a valuable lesson you learned in 2010.
I think that I haven't finished learning the lessons of 2010 yet.


JCK said...

#21 sounds like a winner! So great that you've connected with someone else and enjoy her so much.

Fantastic news on possible closing in mid-February. Good luck!

Don't be too hard on yourself. Moving is a big deal. Especially when you have a child, and a husband to take care of. :)

the dragonfly said...

Hey, I gave birth in 2010. I don't count? ;)

painted maypole said...

dragonfly... wow. That was a HUGE mistake on my part. i think my forehead is now bruised from where I hit it when I read your comment. SO SORRY. Post has been edited.

the dragonfly said...

Aww, don't bruise your forehead. You invite me to visit, and we play scrabble nearly every day, so I know I'm not truly forgotten. :)

Anonymous said...

Here's to 2011, the year in which you will laugh freely and find yourself in the most unexpected places.

I think the move to your for-real home will help. Looking back, when we moved to this house, which was not an uprooting by any means, I was pretty depressed by everything that had to be done to make it livable.

kayerj said...

here's hoping 2011 treats you more kindly :)

Kat said...

Aww. Man, it was just such a hard year for you. I pray that 2011 gives you peace and contentment and very much happiness. :)

I really like this meme. I'll have to remember it for next year.

Rima said...

I hope that 2011 treats you well, PM.

Kyla said...

2010 was rough on you! I hope 2011 is much easier as you settle into your new home and life there.

MARY G said...

Yeah. Pulling up your roots and trundling half way across the continent is not easy and not fun, a lot of the time. But it doesn't sound to me as if you are failing to put the roots back down. You need your own pot to do that. Hope the move in February really helps.
I'm glad we now share the same climate, though.
Wishing you a much easier and smoother 2011.
My godchild is now a handsome and accomplished 18 year old. Who has just friended me on Facebook. Holy cow how time does fly.